today is miserable. i always thought working hard will do. but i dinn know working smart is the way. but till now, i realised it. thanks for reminding me that. i went honest today. and i knew im tired of all interactions. thanks for everything. i nearly cried today in front of her. luckily, i held back my tears thanks to ningg. It was her last day in sushi tei. she stuffed chocolates in my mouth. th sweetness melted almost immediately. and half my pain was gone. my tears evaporated as well. thanks again, i seriously love her. and sorry for being miss late queen. im sincerely so so sorry!! ); i wanted to stay, because, i remembered i wanted to quit my first job when i turned 16, it was a sec 4 december holidays. i told my mum & dad i wanted to quit, because ppl were mean. they told me im too sheltered, and welcome to the working world i just cant thicken my skin, and accept what ppl say i just get too emotional! so much so that i just feel that im too inferior as compared to them. since young, everyone had started comparing. me, my cousin, my brothers. maybe, their comments and comparison are only important to me and nobody gives a damn to whatever is happening. but it matters to me. me & my bloody character! i just cant let go. and i get sad over trivial stuffs! yucks! i hate myself for that! i try to stay happy! ^.^ and im stil trying ); today, she knew we were at th same station, and knew that im gonna be coached under her. yet, she made me go all the way to th schedule and check it. perhaps she meant well. but i dinn know. PANTRY. washing everything starts. i started cleaning it FAST ensuring its OIL-FREE she was there, and i started washing. she was rather angry and sarcastic i suppose. at me, my dumbness & noobness really seriously pissed her off. i wanted to apologise, but i seriously wonder why can't she be just a lil more patient with me? and nevermind it, and th story continues.. i really wanna improve our relationship. but how? is apologising the right way?
earthlings! (: My name is PAMELA WANG. 19 this year (born in 1990). Currently, pursuing a UOL business degree in SIM. Hoping to become a successful businesswoman in the future. Confessions: shopaholic/pinkaholic. Struggling hard to understand adults' way of living. Cravings for sweet addictive food, avoids bitter food. LOVE making new friends but HATES entering a new and unfamiliar environment. LOVES hellokitty. Not a typical dog lover but HATES cats. LOVES singing. someone who needs 8 hrs of sleep everyday. having the same dream like every other girl ( to meet a prince and live happily ever after ) BRING ME SMILES, I WANNA BE HAPPY(:
earthlings! (: My name is PAMELA WANG. 19 this year (born in 1990). Currently, pursuing a UOL business degree in SIM. Hoping to become a successful businesswoman in the future. Confessions: shopaholic/pinkaholic. Struggling hard to understand adults' way of living. Cravings for sweet addictive food, avoids bitter food. LOVE making new friends but HATES entering a new and unfamiliar environment. LOVES hellokitty. Not a typical dog lover but HATES cats. LOVES singing. someone who needs 8 hrs of sleep everyday. having the same dream like every other girl ( to meet a prince and live happily ever after ) BRING ME SMILES, I WANNA BE HAPPY(:
