MAGICALLY ME & YOU

2010-03-24T08:21:00.003-04:00

I heard the tiramisu cake was from an italian restaurant, sometimes I really prefer normal cookies and cream cake ): at the very least it taste better!

2010-03-24T08:03:00.003-04:00

It was a day out with qing. She had just lost her voice and I wondered if she'd recovered. We were turning the whole bugis upside down searching for suitable gifts as birthday gifts for our brothers. So wait till you're a sister, you'll understand how this feels (: As usual, I'll do all the talking but this time round, I've got little response! The amazing part is she don't feel pain at all in her throat!

We spent a few hours in artbox and a bookstore. This is what typical schoolgirls do huh? typical hang-outs as well~

2010-03-21T11:23:00.006-04:00

are guys all the same? he told me 90% of the guys in the world gets engrossed in the virtual world. i thought so too. i can still remember that incident vividly. i hope we'll still be the same 10 years down the road (:

2010-03-19T11:32:00.003-04:00

it was a tiring day with 2 tuition at one go, im dead beat. after tuition, i went to imm to meet th girls for dinner! oh yeah, i forgot to thank you guys for waiting for me with your unbearable hunger! thanks and sorry girls!! i never felt bored with you guys around (: really cheered me up! ah mei cafe was really nice, thanks to daph for th recommendation! we really ate a lot! <3

2010-03-15T23:57:00.007-04:00

2010-03-15T23:08:00.006-04:00

2010-03-14T12:49:00.002-04:00

my final struggle for prelims ended just now. i'm really sick and tired of mugging non stop ): though i've slacked a little here and there, just like geraldine said, "sociology is draining" ): needless to say, it definitely is, without doubt. finally i can heave a sigh of relief. but after tomorrow, what's ahead waiting is th real monster we're going to defeat! *MAJOR EXAMS*

情人眼里出西施- I don't wanna put our love to test. So i believed (:

tomorrow's paper starts at 2.15pm and ends at 5.15pm. after th exam i'd be out with th girls. can't wait for th clock to turn fast enough to end my miserable tortures!

oh yeah, and mom (i'm disappointed in her again) time and again, she never fails to bring sadness to my face. th bathroom slipper and my brother's shirt. to her, i'm just another rubbish dump- th one who collects their unwanted and used stuffs. it's th little actions that showed how much i meant to her, as a daughter. on a happy note, i'm gonna put braces and learn driving soon, th happy things will most probably happen after may? which is after my MAJOR EXAMS ):

genie genie, please make me fall in love with studying! <3

2010-03-12T10:08:00.003-05:00

i thought i've changed. into a new me. but i'm wrong. so wrong. cos i haven't change at all. i'm still th timid me, th pamela who loves to cry. but i can't control my tears, i can't control them from falling, from rolling down my cheeks. why must i be th weak one, i just want to be strong and stand up for myself once. just once. give me th courage to do it.

i can't have th best of both worlds.

2010-03-08T10:07:00.003-05:00

i hate this feeling
tearing for nothing again
why must i treasure this family so much when i'm not even comparable to a bathtub
this is th reason i can't break away with this barrier, mom

2010-03-07T11:42:00.002-05:00

percy jackson and the lightning thief! it was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
everyone should really catch that movie! heh! first class recommendation! though i knew some really arrogant person named percy as well! anyway yeah, it's really really an eye opener for me when i catch it with my brother (: i must have irritated him cos' my sound effects were intolerable! so sorry brother!

one more weekend to th end of my torture, and in fact, not exactly. i've still got may's major exam to go~ and that's really tiring. to be studying all day long.

ever since i knew th korean girl's group girls generation. i was going gaga over cosmetic surgery in korea. i know looks are superficial, but to me, at th very least, it gives me confidence. after checking th price via th net, with him sitting beside me, i realised one thing. he told me those were too "perfect" so much so that they look so "fake" to him, he wouldn't believe its true. it was this sentence that made me drop th idea of buying an air ticket to korea and get a total "new" me. though it was somewhat of what i really wanna do when i get into th working world, i realised that's not it anymore. nothing matters except your love one loves th natural you, who you really are. cos' i would't be happy to learn that he love th "new" me

thanks baby for enlightening me, my superficial dream

2010-03-03T01:48:00.004-05:00

2010-03-02T00:27:00.003-05:00

have you ever ask your parents how your name came about?

my name : PAMELA WANG JIAMIN

PAMELA= mummy told me she went for an interview, and she was so attracted by th receptionist's beauty. and her name is pamela. so she decided to name her baby girl pamela.

MIN= cos before i was born, there's this movie, and in th movie, there's this really pretty, elegant, and attractive woman 张敏 (and that's according to my parents) and that explains how i got my chinese name (:

and dad was saying JIAMIN sounds really special (: then i must be really really special to him..

2010-03-01T13:05:00.000-05:00

Today was a fairytale, you were the prince.
I used to be a damsel in distress.
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six.
Today was a fairytale.

Today was a fairytale.

Today was a fairytale, I wore a dress,
You wore a dark grey T-shirt.
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess.
Today was a fairytale.

Time slows down
Whenever you're around.

Can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me.
Fell in love when I saw you standing there.
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale.
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale.

Today was a fairytale,
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet.
Every move you make, everything you say is right.
Today was a fairytale.

Today was a fairytale,
All that I could say is now it's gettin so much clearer.
Nothin' made sense till the time I saw your face.
Today was a fairy tale.

2010-03-01T11:41:00.003-05:00

i'm at fault. i know i am. i know exam stress, and all that bullshit excuses, as long as they're from my mouth, it seems as though they're just words i'm trying to defend myself. since when did all these happen?

i really miss you. i really do.

but things just happen so unexpectedly and unpredictably. i'm tired and sick of all these. i guess you feel likewise.

is love selfish? or are human beings th selfish ones? it must be us. you find it so hard to accommodate to my needs. and i find it hard to be th one standing in your shoe. i know i'm just not th perfect girl out there. i know i don't even bother trying, i just don't wanna be th one tearing, don't wanna admit being a loser, don't wanna be th one being hurt. i just don't wanna be th one. yeah, and i'm selfish, for that i know.

th reassurance i needed, th counselling i needed, th comfort i needed, th attention i needed, th text messages i needed, th calls i needed, th hugs i needed, th care i needed, th love i needed.. they weren't here tonight

all i can hear, replaying in my head, was us, arguing over senseless issues. why must it be an issue of who gives in more?

th start of a relationship is always that beautiful, that's really why it kept us going, and now i dying to know how you feel.

is it tiring to be with me? it must be.

2010-02-24T00:12:00.002-05:00

life is boring. i'm like mugging with no aim ): with this limited time i have to complete so many subjects. ya, i know you would say serve me right for last minute work! heh (: blame cny for it then haha!

after 22nd, i just feel so alone again ): i wonder why these feelings keep bugging me, insecurity keep settling in just because you aren't here, physically..

i don't mind th little quarrels as long as you're here, beside me again. i miss you..

off to muggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg~

2010-02-19T05:18:00.001-05:00

i love my pink exlim!!

2010-02-16T21:47:00.004-05:00

this year's cny was sort of quiet with many people missing in action! nevertheless, with th companion of my lovely cousins, family, jc clique and friends, they managed to make my day (:

reunion lunch with baby's family at holland village's sushi tei. sushi tei brings back tons of memories, it's th place we first met, th place we first got to realise th existence of both you and me, th place we worked together, th place we chitchat together etc. though i don't really understand cantonese, but one repetitive phrase that i can definitely reconcile with is her mummy asking me to eat more, eat more! haha (:

unfortunately, valentine's day fall on th first day of cny! and it freaks me out ): initially i thought i can't even have th slightest hope of meeting my baby! but my parents agreed and they find it okay to invite him over at grandma's place. but in th end, we didn't meet up, over some trivial matters, you know what!

early in th morning, th next day, right after valentine's, he made it up to me (: with his thoughtful card containing his thoughtful thoughts (: i was overwhelmed with happiness, what he wrote in there really touched my heart (: cause i could see and sense his efforts from just a page of words (: i love you, baby <3

2010 WISHLIST

1) longevity to my parents and grandparents, and great-grandparents (may all of you be in th pink of health)

2) may my parents business be prosperous from th new 2010 year onwards!!

3) i want my baby to protect himself, prevent himself from injuries and pain

4) i want my baby to be happy too! (with me)

5) may my brother be more sensible and soar to greater heights (good results)

6) i want them to be happy of course (:

7) all th best to my friends (health, results, aims in life, other desires (: )

8) and for now, i just hope my efforts reflect in my results (:

9) i wanna be free from frustrations, troubles, madness, jealousy and all th bad things on earth!

10) i wanna be a happy me!

11) please give me intelligence, genie!

12) world peace

13) no people struggling in th vicious cycle of poverty

14) may th police be more efficient in nabbing all th bad people!

15) fill th air with love!

2010-02-16T00:53:00.009-05:00

2010-02-15T21:52:00.015-05:00

2010-02-09T08:55:00.002-05:00

i miss you, miss you, miss you much <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

2010-02-09T08:37:00.006-05:00

it's a joke day! with my beloved companions from sushi tei! (: thanks for comforting me and giving me advices! most importantly, rushing all th way down after your exams and after rushing thru your assignments. i'm touched, really! (: (: (: thanks, <3

it's really hilarious to sit and listen to alicia! she's th star of th day! joke luh!! (: maybe i'm easily tickled to burst into a laughter! but thanks for your entertainment! :D i miss those days when we worked together, i really do. i know everyone of us have our own problems, so i'm really glad that you guys could lend your listening ears. sometimes, i just need someone who listens. (sound like old granny right?) so i'm gonna devote this space to thank both of you.

thank you, alicia & peishan :)

2010-02-08T10:54:00.000-05:00

i'm suffocating.
i'm suffocated.
seriously, i need a break

2010-02-08T10:26:00.002-05:00

i've got enough of crazy contacts adding me in msn! what kinda email address is all that? never seen before long alphabets and whole string of numbers! it's real sick. stop irritating me and please disappear from my life. maybe seeing me landing in this torture makes you happy, but i'm seriously living in hell. get away, please.

i cried. i cried. i admit, twice in a row. because of you. because of dad. you won't know, ever since i gotta know you, my life has been revolving around you, till now, it's still revolving around you. what am i supposed to do when you aren't beside? tell me? store our photos? build up a photo album? or just keep my mind occupied with happy memories of ours? what am i to do when there isn't anyone who listens? isn't anyone who's able to make me laugh and forget about what i'm worrying, what i'm brooding over temporarily? what should i do? tell me, step by step.

i'm tired. yet lessons ain't over. thr are people whom i can't avoid. people whom i have to face. and appear brave pretentiously. it really doesn't matter whether it's th front or back stage, cos all along i can't hide my true feelings, my true self.

baby reassured me. but you know those feelings are not surfacing, they are suppressed. i really don't know what will happen if i were to let out my emotions all at one go.

you know and i know. we both love each other deeply. but when i need you, where are you? i need to let it out, now, again, for th third time.

my head is suffering from excruciating pains. i can't, can't take it anymore. with only me willing to make th motor run, make th river flow, make th kite fly, make th day a happy one, isn't sufficient. i'm gasping for air, for help, for attention, for you.

if you don't know how important you are, i'll tell you, you're th immense pain in my head now. i need you badly

2010-02-07T08:12:00.003-05:00

i'm so used to having you by my side, so used to you surrounding me. everything about you is just getting inside of me. so much so that, you're becoming part of me. you told me hugging me is nice. it's like knowing i won't escape, i won't go anywhere or disappear all of a sudden. and i realise my importance, i'm so valued by you (: i can feel my presence, i love you..

2010-02-06T10:31:00.003-05:00

i spotted a new bag! it is in my wishlist! haha (: th charles & keith white bag! baby says i look better in white than pink at least for that design (: and i gotta trust his taste! heh! (:

though we quarreled today, i still love him as much (: dont worry baby! muackmuack (:(:(: sometimes in love, its giving and taking (: baby bought this cute melody for me (:(:(: it is really cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
so much so that i can promise i wont abandon it, i wont change it for any valuables, i wont leave it alone for one second! ha :D are you jealous, baby? (:(:(:

looking forward to baby long weekend th following week! (: i just wanna spend more quality time with baby! seeing you for one second is equivalent to exchanging th time for sitting through a week of lecture! see how precious time with you is? so lets put all quarrels, unhappiness, tiffs, aside and away for now, make ourselves remember that we have each other and other issues be foregone.

i love my baby <3

2010-02-01T10:32:00.005-05:00

a new bar-counter (:

it was a fun-fun day (: i tasted th best new year cookie ever at qing's place! (: we were sweating under th scorching heat from th sun. and do you know what made it worst? it was th dog who came chasing me out! ): i could even spot it's saliva yucking out OMG ! WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN WORST? ): i got reprimanded by dad again.he always assume i didn't touch my books ): but th fact is i seldom touch them ): i deserve those scoldings and cold stares!

love my nails! (thanks qing!)- LOVE YA!!!

JUST MAKE YOURSELF MUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-31T10:33:00.010-05:00

sokting's 20th

it was nice catching up with you guys! i really wanted more quality time ): but time's so unreachable and tight. we seriously had to make use of some short distant walk for our catching up! they were my jc clique! nah ( sweekee's presence will form a complete picture! ) i miss th times we spent tgt. though 2 years passed in a blink of an eye, memories that belong to us will always be with us, and our memories will be kept in each of our hearts (: reminiscing those times, we bickered, we mugged tgt, we had recess together just like we had with our secondary and primary schoolmates, we attended lectures together, we sat through tutorials together, we had fun together, open our hearts to each other as well, all those times will never be forgotten.

and sometimes life's too short for regrets. we just sit down and think. and realize there are still so many things we wanna do, but still undone. maybe we plan, but we never seem to put those thoughts into actions. we have our own lives, but th least we could do, is to create an empty slot for those treasured friendships (: i desire for more time with my loved ones!

2010-01-31T10:03:00.008-05:00

baby's injured. and i'm so worried. i just want him to have doggie's recovery! (: please! i beg god. i want my healthy baby well and jumping in front of me now! i witnessed how his dad did acupuncture on him. it was horrifying to hear him scream! it's th first time i saw his dad smiled so many smiles at one go. his dad asked me if i wanna give it a try too?! (to slim down) i was thinking perhaps i'll be more determined than now, cause jogging isn't painful at all! haha (:

we went to plaza sing! (: in search for his valentine's gift for me!

then cafe cartel~

i wonder why all guys love beef ): and why i don't!

then to starbucks~ where th photo session took place. baby looked real tired. though i ought to be understanding, i think i failed again. cause i kept demanding for energetic looks ):

i wanted to create more memories of us.

2010-01-29T12:08:00.002-05:00

i had so much to say.

so much to do.

but this simple hug will do.

i've gotten all my answers from th warmth you gave.

thanks so much for being close when i needed you th most.

your presence mean th whole world to me.

when you said "we will work towards it"

you lifted th heavy load off, from my heart

all i wanna do now,

is to thank you again (:

2010-01-29T11:48:00.004-05:00

it's stats class today. and i'm so delighted wenzhuang came. she was fuming in anger when i told her bout some of the misfortunes i happen to encounter recently. she's quite a great friend, but maybe we each have our own lives and things to cater to, people to accommodate, and studies to fret about, and th list goes on. so much so that, there isn't empty slots for both of us.

she has got th hellokitty polaroid from japan! i'm over th moon when she suggested to take pics tgt! arrgghh! and we took so many! seriously, though th polaroid itself costs $240, th complement (films with kitty borders) is really cutting throats. especially for ppl like me (not photogenic at all) i really need a mirror right in front of me before i can get some passable photos taken!

i heard from her that th new samsung st550 is out in th market! arghh~ i'm dying to get it! cos of it's marvelous feature of internal view. this function of th camera will help me escape pics with toilet backgrounds. and now i've noticed! - shopping malls toilets are all identical ):

and wenzhuang reminded me to be confident in myself. i've gotta stop hallucinating, stop all hypothetical questions running through my mind, stop all negative thoughts, stop feeling inferior..

mutual trust is important <3

2010-01-29T11:15:00.004-05:00

mummy's finger licking good chicken wings! i wonder when she'll curb her cravings for fried food. it's not bringing her skin any good. beware of pimples! argghh~

it was dinner with family. i wanted so much to gather them to pose for a pic when dad commented "so cui faces you also wanna take!" & "she'll post th pics up in her blog" that's when i shifted my attention to th food on th table instead of their faces! haha (: except for mummy who's really enthusiastic to pose for her picture to be taken! haha (: guess what? i guess i've got her genes! (not photogenic) heh!

steamboat was awesome (: brother wouldn't thought that we would gather for steamboat! it was filling though we had beehoon.

i've got a simple wish, that is, to have dinner with my whole family everyday(:

2010-01-28T02:29:00.002-05:00

THANK YOU, BABY

thanks for letting me know you can make th impossible possible for me

thanks for being my one and only

thanks for always giving in to me when you knew i had no one else to rely on

thanks for giving me a chance to know you

thanks for being you, just you

thanks for your ever growing urgent need to let me know how much you prioritize me

thanks for listening even when you know you fail at consoling

thanks for trying so hard to make me feel secure even when you aren't with me 24/7

thanks for paying attention to my needs

thanks for catering to me even when you were tired from all those training, even when i knew you were drained.

thanks for seriously fulfilling your duty as a boyfriend

thanks for being so uptight over every little thing, every little incident that involved me

thanks for leaving your soul right beside me when you weren't here, in person

thanks for making a belief into this fact that we love each other

thanks for always worrying about my meals, whether i had my breakfast, lunch and dinner on time

thanks for not being annoyed when misunderstandings occur and issues have to be clarified

thanks for accepting me for who i am

thanks for coaxing me when you knew i won't relent

thanks for making me feel th happiness i never had

thanks for satisfying my wishes

thanks for all you've done for me

you are th reason why i smile. I LOVE YOU

2010-01-27T07:43:00.002-05:00

a masterpiece from baby: "macdonald's breakfast pepper art"

it was long since i last posted our photos. i didn't dare to. and i hope you know why. i'm looking forward to our couple tee, couple cap, couple bag etc

but my mood was wrecked.

i wouldn't admit how frail i was, how weak i was, how timid i appeared. but it doesn't matter cos' i know we're both in each others' hearts.

i'm gonna get on with work (:

2010-01-27T07:22:00.003-05:00

just spot those unglam photos of me! heh heh (: how i wish i could crop off those background! blackberry's camera gooooooooooooooooooooooooooood! i'm gonna save till i get my camera! had enough of using my dumb samsung phone~

today there was this karaoke thingy by starhub right in th heart of plaza singapura. i was excited and wanted to learn more about it cos' my real motive was : i wanted a system that could update songs and i don't have to keep searching for dvd and stuff when new albums start to release. starhub has this perfect combination! my desired karaoke system! ha (: how i wish dad would subscribe! i'm gonna beg till he does. heh! am i mean? i know i'm! and th next silly thing was th singing contest! i don't have th guts to do so! (: heh! and i know you're thinking of joining eh, qing? ha!

went to swensens to have a lunch treat. it was a 1 for 1- (MAIN DISH) and th manager was a real comedian with his great sense of humour. it's just th way he reacts to my questions, i find him sucha joker. haha (: then we ordered th mega burger and mega mushroom burger. it was atrocious when i find myself struggling to stuff th burger down my throat. it was mission impossible. i left half of th beef untouched. i guess th only thing i managed to fill my stomach with was th coleslaw and fries (: nevertheless, it was wonderful spending some quality time in there (:

2010-01-27T06:06:00.003-05:00

i am affected. tremendously affected. but i just wanna hide everything inside of me. i wont doubt your love but certain things are so not within my control, certain things are so uncertain. this is th first time i experience such an insecure grasp of your hand. im gasping like a fish out of water. throw me back in, i need th water, th environment that im so used to, so comfortable in. All beyond our expectations. beyond yours, beyond mine. now that it had happened, i will make myself get over it. and seriously, if we are going to embrace ourselves, we will be certain of our next step. i love you, and thats all i really need to know.

2010-01-21T04:41:00.003-05:00

it was long since i last posted. i was so affected by certain things and you should know. but, anyway, it's over and i find no meaning in brooding over them. now, i just wanna carry on with what i'm supposed to do.

yesterday when i was over at my cousin's place. i witnessed th conflict between my aunt and her son. it really really pricks my heart to watch them do this cause i've witnessed it before. sometimes when we say things, we don't really mean it, th words were just blurted out of our mouth in a fit of anger, i'm sure you've experienced it before too uh? cause i had. and th maturity level of th kid is seriously another thing altogether, we can't mix th two issues and come to a single conclusion that is going to harm both parties. i did tried to talk sense into him, and i hope those really got into his head. grow up please, people! we've got too many things to keep ourselves occupied with, too many issues to poke our nose into, too many worries to create frustration, we have unlimited things we wanna do, but we have limited time. please learn that people around us are precious, learn to cherish yourself, i guess that's th best gift to everyone. we'll never know what's gonna happen tomorrow, so what's th point in being th winner just for now?

tomorrow is friday, and i finally get to meet my baby. after a chat with daphane, i realised i was partly to blame for our quarrel as well. i'm sorry, baby. it was interesting to learn that guys and girls are sooooooooooo different! so, yeah, i can't expect everything to happen th way i wanted them to, after-all nothing's perfect, including me and you.

gonna continue with papers and gonna meet mum to get cny shoes (: going gaga over it! hipppeee!!

2010-01-10T07:51:00.003-05:00

another week of looking forward to meet baby! today i saw his love again! (:(:(:

2010-01-10T07:35:00.002-05:00

OMG! how retard can we look! heh (: LOL
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heh! one failed shot! i'm just afraid i'll look fat (:
th two twist look th same? cos both are mine!!!

this isn't her!

her 招牌动作!!!

it was a nice outing! (: cos i wanted to skip stats class hence i forced her out! wee~ we went to bugis to shopped for my high waist shorts, then, to suntec city for her levis jeans, marina square for accessories! it was a fruitful trip, cos we did th shopping, eating and walking! walking is really great cos it saves on transportation and it's also a form of exercise! heh (:

2010-01-07T04:24:00.002-05:00

i am listless. i just got off my dad car and nearly got my whole thumb nearly detached from my palm ): th pain is still there. i saw my finger bleed. grr~ even typing makes it hurt!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-05T11:09:00.001-05:00

i wanna shout it out loud, i wanna world world to know

I LOVE MY FAMILY
I LOVE MY BABY
I LOVE MY FRIENDS
I LOVE MY COUSINS
I LOVE MYSELF

LOVE'S IN THE AIR, FEEL IT!

2010-01-03T23:24:00.003-05:00

2010 is a brand new start.

01) I'm going to shove all unhappiness aside and live with what i have, live in contentment.
02) I'm not going to envy this and that, brood over this and that, get jealous over what people have and what i don't
03) I'm not going to get upset easily so crazily often, and vent my anger on anyone especially my baby
04) I'm not gonna rot my life through these 3 years, I'm gonna really start tuning in to the news, knowing what's happening around me and figure out what the news is really trying to say, I'm gonna stop scratching my scalp and say i don't know
05) I'm gonna make time for my family
06) I'm gonna treasure every weekends, treasure my life and treasure you, my dearest baby
07) I'm gonna be a good listener and not always be the one who speaks
08) I'm going to be a good daughter, a good girlfriend, a good friend, a good sister and a good student
09) I'm gonna slim down no matter what ( I really can't stand comments like "hey, you've gained weight" ), I'm gonna do my exercise regularly and really really follow strict to what are th AVOIDS and MUST HAVE, I really cannot believe myself, I can't even fulfill simple mundane things that I should do, like drinking 8 cups of water everyday (seriously, i don't know what to say)
10) I'm going to put my quantity time into quality time and I mean it
11) I'm going to make myself develop this simple responsibility to commit for giving tuition (I just don't understand what I'm thinking, everyone can do it, so can you, so make yourself do it, pamela!)

I"M GOING TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! :))))))

2010-01-03T11:21:00.002-05:00

life is this bored without you, even on a sunday night. mummy was really enthusiastic, she even suggested karaoke! (: haha! but too bad, dad was dead tired, and tomorrow you guys gonna work! but im so happy to hear from mummy she is willing to keep all her tuesdays for us. im suffering from inferior complex. seriously. i dont know why. but im. if im gonna start eating now, it is game over! ): so i have to control, kick off my bad habits! and work my way thru. jiayou!

i miss you x1000

happy new year everyone!

2009-12-31T00:21:00.007-05:00

MY SOCI FAMILY!

2009-12-29T10:21:00.003-05:00

it was a super cute day! sat with chelsey in ibm class :D i was staring at th girl's handwriting, and that girl was sitting in front of me when mr nageb caught me not paying attention! ): he spoke in chinese saying "我在这里，你在看哪里？" it was damn embarrassing, i could only shy away with my awkward smiles! then, after class i was supposed to borrow chelsey's notes home! then, here comes th interesting part, both of us were so excited bout tomorrow's outing discussing th details when we forgot bout th notes! grrr~ heh (: *laughlaugh

off i went, to meet qing! (: we headed to cityhall and she was grumbling bout her hunger! she got me present from china sichuan! you couldn't notice me smiling inside of me, when i saw th hand accessory, she actually remembered i liked th design. there was once i told her that th one she was wearing was really nice, and i couldn't find it in singapore. and now, th similar one is right next to me! (: thanks babe! you're really really thoughtful. she bought a blouse (when she said we can wear it out tgt!) and hairclip for me too. how fortunate am i? i've realised now, that i've sucha great great sista like you! (: went to xinwang TAIWAN cafe (: and i must say, mango milkshake is superb!my bbq eel beehoon soup! (: i couldn't force it down my throat ( really filling! )

卤肉饭? if i remembered correctly! (: qing said normally when she watched tv shows, they recommend this dish! but she couldn't finish it as well! heh!

we bought dresses and she had to rush off to her grandma's cos it's a tuesday! ): then i went to yew tee mac and tried doing th stats tutorial again! (: till 9, when chelsey called to meet up. she sent me home! and she DROVE me home. that's th real real cool part! though i couldn't help worrying her car might just got scratched cos of th dumb cars (inconsiderate ppl) parking at both sides of th single road! and i'm so sorry, i don't even know th way home! ): thanks for sending me home again! (: (: (:

2009-12-27T10:20:00.006-05:00

im growing fonder of my baby! <3 falling deeper and deeper down th love cliff! i'm going to dump all memories of th past away! far from my sight, far into a far far away land.. i don't want th memories to come haunt me ever again. i'm done with th karma. seriously. i just want a happy life now. my present life, i want it to be my future life too. i can feel myself sinking deeper into his overwhelming love. i'm poisoned by his love! heh.. we went to chevron today after a rain-walk to imm in search for my blue nail polish in thefaceshop! i've been grumbling much about things not being available when i seriously crave and have a desire for it. baby has been giving in to me! thanks baby!

2009-12-26T10:24:00.003-05:00

i just received linjie's christmas card via mail! (: really sweet of her! thanks so much babe! (:(:(:

baby's christmas gift! he's trying hard to clear my wishlist uh!sometimes it's really th thought that counts! thanks thanks (:(:(:

2009-12-26T10:12:00.004-05:00

i will treasure you today and tomorrow, into th future of many tomorrows. watching you fall asleep is really really sinful. thanks for doing so much for me. thanks for being my baby! <3

2009-12-24T11:07:00.003-05:00

it is real real tiring today! met dap in th morning to return her econs & soci notes! look at th trouble cruise brought to me! grrr~ anyway it is over, no use brooding over it already! heh :D had sausage macmuffin with egg and couldn finish th burger after narrating stories to dap! guess it must be tiring for her ears to endure grandma stories like mine! heh! so sorry babe! *apologies

then, met up with baby after making him wait for an hour! cos i was trying to fit in mum pants when i realised i had not slimmed down on my thighs! perhaps afterall after the trip back from cruise, i had gained back my weight! irritating fats! went bugis with baby! accompanied him to shop for clothes! i wonder if those clothes i picked suit his preference as well. but trust my taste alright? (:

2009-12-23T20:33:00.002-05:00

don't remind me of him.
i just don't wanna remember anything about him.
it's been hard patching wounds.
but it's even harder now seeing th tag in her blog.

i'm glad i'm lucky enough to escape your clutches.
those evil clutches.

2009-12-23T12:10:00.003-05:00

2009-12-23T10:38:00.020-05:00

At cruise centre (checking in)
nice pose eh ( dad & tingshian)
me & tingfong
weiling is trying to force huizhen in for a picture ! LOL

3some room! ( me & 2 brothers! )

let me tell you a secret! she's a real glutton! (RICE-lover)

chef wong!! (:
don't get misled by th looks of th dish! it's really nicccccccccccceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
my first dish on cruise ( fish steak )
cute eh?! my house (if only luh)

MY FAMILY

th mirror really makes me look slimmer?

healthy salad supper!

EMO PICS! ~

th swimming pool at night (:
MSIA TWIN TOWER
oyster dish!

weiling's family apple juice!

this is really really tasteless! i wonder what's nice and promotable about it!
po-----piah~

quite small eh? SUPERSTAR LIBRA

tingshian's newly bought nike cap!

smiling Buddha!
a fierce one?!?!

the consequence of boredom!

this painting was beside my bed in th hotel room (:
look at th mess we've created (w/0 a maid) HAHA

AT PATONG BEACH (PHUKET)

cashew nut confectionery!

SPOT TH CRAB! (:

th layout and atmosphere was damn nice except for some filled stomachs like mine ): depressed for another round of food!

2009-12-23T02:34:00.005-05:00

2009-12-23T02:15:00.004-05:00

i'm so tired after cruise ): but i'm so glad i've got lots to share from m'sia and thailand! <3 misses to my love ones (: i hope everyone's well! it's really food & food on cruise! we've got breakfast, morning tea, lunch, dinner, supper! and western cuisine, chinese cuisine and buffet! ~ never ending foodlist! let's let th pictures do th talking in th later post..

2009-12-18T14:31:00.002-05:00

i think im just god damn sick! i cant fall asleep.. i had been tossing in bed for 3 and a half hours! i wonder what is happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-15T06:28:00.004-05:00

after his book out.. i know you're tired! just so tired even to pose for a picture! ha!

all time favourite * golden roll *
unagi! i remembered the first time i ever savoured this wonderful eel was in sakae with daddy. when daddy ordered unagi rice i think! he let me tasted some and i feel in love with unagi! but that was sakae! now i never stepped into sakae ever since i gotta know existence of sushi tei & ichiban sushi. so baby's right, my taste for food really change fast!
im sorry! my hand did shake a lil! ): but you're still as cute as ever! even th blurry you!

that bowl isn't mine ~

he really can make me LOL naturally! heh :D just notice his comical face!

sushi tei is the place we met! (: it rekindles feelings! (:

i just realised i haven't upload these photos! ): mi xiu mi xiu baby! heh! i was going back on my word! whr's my diet and exercise plan! grrr! no chocolates no fast food no icecream from today! grrr! i need half a year, i just can't believe why ppl have the determination to slim down! i need the motivation! push me on!!

gotta rush on with econs & ibm assignment! can't believe im gonna skip 3 lectures in a row next week! friday thr's no lesson as it's christmas! baby's booking on thur? oop! LOVE <3 is in the air! ha! HAPPY ME~

but going on cruise means missing baby for a week! friday gotta see you no matter what! (: baby, do take care of yourself. i can't help worrying for you, i don't know how to stop illnesses or injuries for sticking onto you! but i will bless you! bless you! muackmuack (:

rushing off to complete my assignments! i need to work doubly hard now! harder to score my desired grades!

2009-12-09T20:59:00.003-05:00

that friday.. i was too lonely to spend th friday alone.. i met up with cousin ning and huixian! (; huixian's phone work miracles, images were beautifully shot! heh! (: she changed a lot as compared to th past her i knew (: i wonder if that's a good thing!

2009-12-09T20:47:00.003-05:00

yesterday i watched these photos, i cried and i fell asleep. these photos were supposed to keep me happy, weren't they? i miss him..
see baby's masterpiece!
and this is by baby! ya! i noticed th difference. i'm not cut out to be a photographer ):
he said i was a lousy photographer! this is by me ):

2009-12-08T20:23:00.002-05:00

just got my hair rebonded, it is kind of short now! ): but mummy says i had to cut off those ends, cos it is really really dry and splitting! my ends are splitting! hush hush! (: i think im kind of sick today, could not attend soci class ):

love is not a bet, is it? i just could not let myself believe it is.

2009-12-05T19:33:00.003-05:00

time is not enough ): i want more time, i need more time with my baby. it sucks to hear people getting out of love. though it's not happening to me but it's affecting me real badly. it's just like people who don't believe in fate, don't believe in love, or don't believe in marriages. that sucks.

tell me love is real. love is true. with baby by my side, and the fact that i'm missing him on every weekday, my heart tells me it's true. it's really true. so things around me, please stop intruding in! 'll convince myself cos time will show!

no photos to spam this space ):
baby was sick ytd
but he said he has got regenerative power!
heh! baby is well again!!!

i just hope this will last. i want this to be my last relationship. cos i just know i'll cling on to you tight!

2009-12-02T11:07:00.007-05:00

my dearest cousin, this is what i have for you. i really wanna lend you my shoulder. lend you a listening ear and i wondered if i had failed my job as one. i promise i will be there just for you when you need me around. i promise i will. and for what is meant to be, will be. trust me.
After every storm the sun will smile; for every problem there is a solution, and the soul indefeasible duty is to be of good cheer

today was supposed to be a sweet and memorable day! but i apologize for ruining th mood. sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry* a thousand apologies to justina ): i was so late today.. but i know you will understand..

paragon's toilet has got super nice lighting (:

this pink model look really really pretty and i just feel inferior posing pictures with her as background ):

justina has got th super sweet smile! heh (: which i can't seem to imitate!

sinful KFC 2 piece meal ):
i think of you when i had ice lemon tea.. and what if someday i lost th taste to savour it?

2009-11-30T02:44:00.005-05:00

still got 3 sotong balls! it thought they were fishballs! (: thanks baby!
th new burger promotion by MACDONALDS! i think it's called chicken teppanyaki? i'm not sure of th spelling! heh! pardon me!
shake shake! my fave! shaker fries!
heh! (: nice uh?

trying to make some sauce for baby?

failed attempt!!

7 shots were taken by mr kwok! but this is th most successful one! heh! sorry! i know you've got a demanding gf! who th hell will make you do this! hahaa (: muack!!

don't ask me why! i just miss you ): i miss everything about you..

2009-11-26T21:11:00.007-05:00

KTV partyworld with qing!! (: i thought her a levels ended le! then found out she still has one more paper to go! grr! (: 4 hours of singing! (:

pictures taken in th handicapped toilet just outside partyworld @ clementi! i was wondering if there'll be anyone outside queuing waiting for th toilet! inconsiderate ppl like us occupy th toilet for th mirror to camwhore! haha (: LAUGHS!

the lights effect in th room were really amazing uh?

look at qing! so into singing! (: she don't even know i'm taking pictures of her! (:
the green apple ice blended and strawberry ice blended tasted super duper sweeeeeetttt... i thought green apple is supposed to be sour?

2009-11-26T20:51:00.004-05:00

幸福就是咖喱鱼头! (:

2009-11-24T06:54:00.002-05:00

2nd day of missing you. but i hold on tight to my belief. absence makes the heart grow fonder. when you told me you can meet me on thursday, you couldn't believe there is some excitement over the horizon. you're akin to a new medicine who works wonders with my headaches (:

today was a busy day, i could hardly catch a breath. after ibm, i went for brunch with my family and this little action of dad really touched my heart deeply. both of us ordered the mee hoon kuey and it was when the waiter came serving the food. i saw his nails dipped inside the soup which is the bowl he was shoving towards me. one word, i felt damn "disgusted" then dad changed mine with his. yeah, it was this action of his, it changed my perception towards him totally..

then i wanted to get back home to catch a wink, but i wasn't allowed to. cause dad wanted me to accompany mummy to buy books for tingshian new semester ): though i was reluctant to, but i still went.. there was this guy who was serving us, and mummy was really careful with the books, as in the prices (: typical aunty? haha! nevermind about that. that guy counted wrongly for several times and miss packing some books! this reminded me of secondary school days when i was quite familiar with the bookshop aunty in cckss (: and i helped out during the orientation period via selling books etc (: it was fun though! reminiscing bout stats now! ):

then there was this weighing machine, which i suppose every school has one. grrr! that's when i got really really really shocked+upset+all other negative emotions you can think of.. i even feel like crying when the scale reads 52kg! OMG..

i went home and had my sweet bath. dad came up my room after 15 mins? and he said he thought i wanted to slim down. so perhaps a good idea would be to join him in a run? grrrr.. nice timing. but i thought it'd benefit me no matter what. i wanna slim down, i wanna make time for family and i wanna be healthy! (: so i changed into pe attire and joined him for a run at cck park.

ran for 30 mins, did sit ups and did skipping.
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"tiring"

and now i'm blogging here. trying to escape some boredom. yeah, anyway i shall be off to ibm & soci (: take care ppl!

2009-11-23T07:04:00.009-05:00

8.06pm and i'm stuck here blogging again. today wasn't a pleasant day. my maid thought i was having my holidays when SIM don't even give students any privilege of going on holidays. and congrats to me cause i woke up at 7.35am and i had to pull poor dad out of his cosy bed. i'm sorry dad! thanks for fetching me to school, though i was still late. i reached school at 8.50am? that is if my memory didn't fail me. after class, i met yuting and we had banmian in SIM, then headed to ngee ann's library to bury ourselves in those books ): she knows how to drive eh! how i wish i can be like her *envy* but dad says my skills would go rusty if i don't even have a car to practice my skills. and yeah, i do agree with him. additionally, dad was tight on cash, so i didn't have a chance to take up driving. and on that note, i recalled something that could cheer myself up! my first appointment for fixing on braces is on 3 dec (:

1st day of your tough training. I was hoping my cell will ring once or twice. But a pathetic 4 repetitive messages telling me you are busy, really busy and super busy. all i can do now is to stare blankly into space and think of you. and what's left with me is scattered memories of yours..

how i wish you knew that i'm thinking of you.. and likewise i hope you're thinking of me..

2009-11-20T11:26:00.006-05:00

her macbook is a beauty! so is her house! i swear (i want a house like this if not better than hers (: )

2009-11-20T11:19:00.002-05:00

the cookies were almost done! heh heh! and th timing was like 11.45pm. i hope it's edible! (: it looks passable though (:

2009-11-20T10:03:00.008-05:00

after staying in a castle for one night, i'm starting to miss my cosy little room (: here i'm back again..

i mentioned to daddy bout th braces, he said he wanna check first. but i seriously hope to get it done soon. cos i wanna have nice straight teeth (:

20 november 2009- a really com-memorable day (: we started our journey today, which is also your birthday (: i wanna wish you happy birthday again! (: and i seriously and sincerely hope today is a memorable and unforgettable birthday for you, though there were some cnflicts between us over some minute issues. i need to apologize again for being a failure at controlling my missy temper, for hoping that people will be naturally sensitive to my feelings, actions, thoughts etc, for making you upset even on your birthday itself. i'm sorry. Let's erase unhappy moments alright?

LET ME SING YOU A BIRTHDAY SONG!
HERE IT GOES : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU OO~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! (CLAP CLAPS!)
CHINESE VERSION: ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE~ ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE~ ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE.. ER~ ZHU NI SHENG RI KUAI LE~

here's your present (:

we catched 2012, the show was simply marvellous, cause to me it was as if it's really doomsday, the effects were so real, it wasn't a dream. it made me realised something. life is too short for regrets. making a wrong decision or taking a wrong step would really lead to an irreversible disaster. being selfish will only cause more harm than good to your loved ones. so people, embrace everyone and make the world your family! we were at jurong point and people were going so gaga over th coming christmas season (: at least i could really feel th atmosphere (: santa claus is coming to town~ but i'll be excited perhaps only over th christmas sale! (: we were drinking all time favourite, or *our fav-mocha frappe!

2009-11-19T10:52:00.002-05:00

i'm blogging at meiling jiejie house! (: using her macbook, i really feel so contented i can sleep sweetly tonight! (: i always wanted a macbook & now i don't need to yearn that much for one, cause i'm already using it! yeaps! yeah! i'm so amazed when i enter her house, it was a beauty, an astonishing, stunning beauty! i simply LOVE her house. It was just like a dream come true for me to step in here. It's a castle, a castle! and they were like th king & queen living happily ever after in a castle of their own (: i'll post all pictures i took when i get back home. It's so gonna be a fun fun night! The initial intention was to bake cookies, meiling jiejie really love baking, as she said "i wanted to bake cakes or be a teacher" I was looking at her with such hopes in my eyes, then she continued " but i'm better off having m current job " which is an office job. She's really successful, how i wish i would be like her (: But i see no future in my life!

baking th cookies and tarts were really fun! especially th nozzie which really resembles a syringe (: though my hands were tired from getting the ingredients mixed well, i enjoyed the process itself. i love baking too (:

patrick kor kor told me i need braces. he said "girls need beautiful teeth, it's important for her future and job as well, it's gonna be a lifetime thing" and i thought he was right. i did realised my teeth wasn't really as beautiful. atrocious teeth! and he commented on my specs as well. the specs keep slipping as if i didn't have any nose bridge to support it from falling. i really think i've got no nose bridge! GRRR! i need a makeover, i really do. Now, th top wish on my wishlist is to fly to korea for plastic surgery! but i wonder if dad will agree to my endless requests ): i'm just like any other girl... who wants a clever brain, many friends, to be loaded with cash, a 24/7 caring boyfriend who accedes to all requests, a warm family, bright future job prospects and most importantly, a pretty face and figure...

i'm having stats tomorrow and i'm dead tired from baking (: take care everyone, i gotta catch some rest!

2009-11-16T11:28:00.002-05:00

mine is rising at an increasing speed & yours is depleting at an increasing speed

2009-11-12T12:42:00.001-05:00

i hope you'll like my gift. just returned miss fang 50 bucks (: you must be wondering why i'm this rich? cause i'm dieting! (: i gotta complete revision for econs tmr at home after math lecture! jiayou! (: off to work!

2009-11-11T10:54:00.002-05:00

300 sit ups! how can you do it? I can't! gotta train harder! ): My target is to be back at 45kg again. I've been putting on weight since I started working at sushi tei. ); Since then, I just can't slim down! arghH! (: Today was tiring- just chasing ibm assignment alone is enough to pull me down. me=pathetic ): tomorrow's a busy study day again! gambateh! (:(:(:

2009-11-05T11:25:00.002-05:00

my com's fixed! wee! i'm over th moon.. it's like i can forget everything that makes me feel down down down!!! (: i'm happy now! happy girl! tomorrow i'll be welcoming my new wardrobe! haha! are you happy for me? i'm surely happy for myself!

i didn't went out with joanne & wenzhuang (we were supposed to meet up to chill) , and alas! tomorrow is already th start of stats class! gg-ed i'm still gonna score A for math! motivation please! jiayou PAMELA!

i received a gift bestowed by heaven. it's such a meticulous gift and it makes me clear all th sad memories of past relationships. i've been in and out of relationships too many times. and i simply hate th feeling. it makes me feel nauseous. i've always found you being not meticulous enough. but you proved me wrong this minute when i held th piece of stone with my bare hands from th warmth of yours. i've never thought of such a gift before (one that really reveals and expresses your feelings) it's true "action speaks louder than words" the fact is i've forgotten how my past rship (his meticulous actions) touched me. and nothing can change how i feel towards you now. cause you've made th impossible possible. you've showed me your heart. and i wanna tell you, i can see it (:

recently my r'ship with dad improved by a huge huge leap! (: and i'm happy! cause we're one big family! we should live happily tgt uh! (: i wanna be a sensible daughter (: one who sets priorities right! (:

my dear brother tf! (:i just hope he escapes his comfort zone soon enough, or it'll be too late for regrets! so boy, i'll be here when you need me around (: once sis, forever sis (: i'm your family.. he's really clever, i just hope he'll know what's priority (: i know he does, just how much effort he's gonna put in.. jiay0u!

qing's a levels coming up! i wanna encourage her! i need to think of something. she's always there when i need someone! i just hope she never disappears and be there for me 24/7. tell me you will? i wonder if she's tired listening to me, being my confidante (it's tough on you) i apologize babe! thanks and all th best! you can do it! cos' you believe you can (; and if you believe so, there's nothing impossible (:

karen's staying over tmr (: meeting vivian for catching up tmr as well!

ibm assignment! ); i still have no slightest idea on what's th example!
sociology- forever too many slides i can't understand! my english sucks (admit it)
library books- start on them!
exercise plan- when are you gonna start?

where's my time? grrrr--- i'm gonna reach out to catch you

2009-11-02T00:53:00.002-05:00

how fattening! mum said everyone share jiu bu hui fei le lohh! but it's still sinful! nearly 30g of fats! ): but it's really nice! it's alright cause my exercise & diet plan's gonna be out real ffast! i swear! (:

mummy gave me this towel! sweet huh? with hearts along th borders. cos' she have a daughter like me who complains bout old towels being too sticky, lack of quality conntrol & stuffs.. th list just goes n with never ending complaints..

look at kerosene a.k.a garfield! look at what she'd done to my big fat thighs! making fun of me really keeps you awake huh? (diine from th pampam owner) since when i've become your pet kitten?

she tried real hard to solve my math prblems! though she's rlly ffalling asleep.. i could tell, dap could to huh? (: laughs!

2009-11-02T00:43:00.002-05:00

we were at clarke quay! searching for homeclub! we were clever enough to go in circles! grrr! spotted th bungy ride on our way! it's was really scary! i woldn't have th guts to play it. but one day i will (: anyway we went for shopping at mall. clubmarc was having its last day sale! and we bought lots of clothes! (: and i got a free membershi card! heh! amazing-thanks fang!